You will blossom

A flower starts deep under the dirt and has to fight against gravity in the darkness before finally breaking free and opening its bloom to the sun. You may feel like you're in darkness and everything around you is muddy, but keep pushing toward the Light and when the time is right, you will burst into blossom.

New Job

So.. I just started work at Cordelia's internship company! For 3 days (+ Saturday) actually.. I got a taste of how it's like during my first day of work.. facing probably the worst director I've ever seen/heard etc. & I also unfortunately ended up with a very strained right thigh (thanks to he-who-must-not-be-named), I didn't think it was bad until I found out that I couldn't even run/climb up and down stairs properly for 2 days~ I was practically limping if I did any of that >< But it's better now, after a good day of rest (:

I think the only reason why I’m going to continue on with this job is because I don’t want to give up & I want to challenge myself to trust and rely on God by allowing myself to be in a position that’s not exactly a bed of roses to me. I don’t even care about the money anymore.. If I was only going to do this for the money, I’d quit right away. Honestly, I really really really didn’t want to go for this job. At first it was about wanting to earn some money, but then.. especially after hearing what Cords said about the boss, and talking to my Mom and friends.. (who told me NOT to go btw) I was 100% sure I didn’t want to go. Despite all this, there was a voice in my head telling me I should go. I had asked Jesus to help me with that dilemma, flipping through the bible and all I saw were stories about people in sort of kind of similar situations to mine :3 They all went ahead because God was with them. I tried ignoring it, but oh wells.. God has His ways.

To be honest, I really want to quit T_T Especially after getting a taste of how it’s like after FIRST day of work. I don’t HAVE to be there, I have a choice. I can be firm and just quit whenever I like. I don’t care about the money anymore anyway. It’s not even a lot. But it’s like.. I feel like if I quit now, I’m not going to experience any of the awesome goodness that God has planned for me when I choose to continue ><

So.. I’m going to work towards not letting my circumstances conform me, I’m not going to be like most people who blame their actions on their circumstances. Don’t ask God to change your circumstances, ask Him to change YOU. I’m going to always praise and thank God no matter what happens. This is my chance to learn to trust in God wholly and for my faith to grow. I don’t think it’s going to be easy, who knows what’s up ahead for the next two months? But what’s there to fear if I know God will be with me throughout? God was with Moses when he stood up to the Pharaoh and demanded to let His people go.. That seems scarier btw, so.. I believe that God will be with me too (:

Sticks and stones may hurt my bones but words will not hurt me. Don’t believe in words that tell you you’re less than what God tells you you are. & no way will Jesus let you fight the Goliaths of your life alone!

I still foresee myself complaining and ranting and whining though :( I’m only human T_T Thinking about going to work tomorrow is kinda depressing.. OK, very depressing.. I don't think I've ever dreaded work like this before T_T It's hard but I'll try not to let the devil's words get to me... because GOD is GOOD!

From my old post:

(하나님은 너를 지키 시는 자) lyrics!

God is your protector
He protects you day and night
Leading you like the sun in the day and moon in the night
His love surrounds you

God is your protector
He has listened to your troubles and sorrows
You should have faith in Him
That God will protect you

For He is higher than the mountain
Deeper than the sea
As He is the Lord who creates heaven and earth.

(:

Life, work.

It's been long since we've updated this blog, about 6 months. :3

I've no where to run, therefore I'm blogging. I hope life is good for everyone! I'm good so guise don't worry. ^_^

It's been two months since, I've started working.. or interning, you call it. It's been tough and I haven't got much of a life. My hours are odd and weird, but I'm coping, thanks to God. I remembering starting out in this job with a dreadful attitude, life has been difficult ;_____;. But thankfully, I'm doing well now.

It's been a week since I've came back from my overseas shoot. 3 days there was tough no doubt, I cried a couple of times on set, but I've managed to pull it through. I guess God will help you out as long as you trust in him.

Liqing has join me at work, honestly, I feel bad for pulling her into this company, but I hope she pulls it through. HAHAH, but if I can do it, so can you. :3 I hope you learn as much as I did.

I hope everyone is well. ^_____^

Purpose Driven Problem

Ooohhh! It has been such a long long time since I have blogged! Well, this one has gotta be a more personal one compared to my previous blogs.

Finally, I am done. Done for the term, I mean!

Well, with all honesty, this term was not a very easy term for me. It was really a tiring and stressful one; I first experienced 'no-sleep days'! :O But I don't want to highlight the bad things because my purpose is not to rant nor complain.

You know, whenever I was riding the train alone, I got to realize a lot of stuff. I think it's because you experience silence and whenever you experience it, you allow God to speak to you. Well, I realize that eveything has 'trade-offs'. Like for example, when you are not that wealthy but your heart seems contented with just the simple things around you. It's like, even though God didn't give you that ample amount of money, He had blessed you abundantly on other aspects like the people around you and simple happiness. Or when some events try to bring you and your friends down, you and your friends become more united, stronger, and firmer. Well, why am I saying this? Just like this tern, even though this term is the hardest term so far (considering my difficult subjects, sleepless nights), I feel that I've been blessed with the people around me. I realized that even though I am barely breathing this term, it was fun. And I just realized it NOW. Yes, I enjoy every group study we had; waking up early morning, going to school way before our class starts, going to school on a Sunday just to study, all those were fun. And it's because you know that I am not alone, people are there to be with me and most of all, God is there to be with me. God has sent me so many people around me to be my CPR and get me going with my life. It is when in the toughest things in your life you do experience all the love and support from the people around you. And it is all because of Him.

Problems are purpose driven. We often tell ourselves whenever some things happen, "everything has a purpose" or "everything happens for a reason". To be honest, it is TRUE! Everything we experience right now has its own purpose even our problems. We might think that problems bring us no good but in fact, they do! They bring out the best things in us, you know why? It is because of them, we get to experience God the most. And I can attest to that. This term, because of the things happened to me, I get to appreciate and treasure all the things I have kept my eyes and heart closed. I have never been thankful for all the smallest things that has been coming to me and most importantly, I have clung to God in every way I can imagine. And through this, I get to encourage others as well to appreciate, to be thankful and that to never lose faith for whatever they're experiencing.

Sooo, everything's done except the results. I am human, and I do get scared. But whenever I remember the verse "Don't be afraid, I will be with you and take care of you" (Jeremiah 1:7-8), I know that Someone was, is and will always and forever be watching over me. I have done my best and I will leave God the rest. I know that God is my Protector and He will never ever abandon me and His people. He has always been there for me, for you and for everyone. We just have to keep the faith and always trust God for He has always planned something for us, something bigger than what we expect. In return, we must continue to live according to His ways and do all things for His greater glory.

Knowing that Christ is real in your life is that you begin to live each day with gratefulness in your heart, hopefulness in your soul and to live that Christlikeness in you. So, I will continue to strive up high to bring maximum glory to God because He had made me to be me; to be SHEI! And I am nothing without Him!

So, for all those who are experiencing some problems, let not be discourage! Someone will always guide your path as long as you take a good grip of His hands and never let go. Always remember that every problem has always been a purpose-driven problem.

Lies in every hardship is faith. 

God is our Protector

God is your protector
He protects you day and night
Leading you like the sun in the day and moon in the night
His love surrounds you

God is your protector
He has listened to your troubles and sorrows
You should have faith in Him
That God will protect you

For He is higher than the mountain
Deeper than the sea
As He is the Lord who creates heaven and earth.

translations credit :: john83wong @ youtube



Amen! ^-^

You have given me your shield of victory. Your right hand supports me; your help has made me great. - Psalm 18:35

Happiness

This photo has struck me in so many ways, and I wish to share this to all of you.

What is happiness?





















"It isn't the great big pleasures that count the most; it's making a great deal out of the little ones. I've discovered the true secret of happiness, and that is to live in the NOW.

Not forever regretting the past, or anticipating the future; but to get the most that you can out of this very instant...

I'm going to enjoy every second, and I'm going to know I am enjoying it while I'm enjoying it. 


Most people don't live; they just race. They are trying to reach some goal far away from the horizon, and in the heat of the going they get so breathless and panting that they lose all sight of the beautiful, tranquil country they are passing through; and the first thing they know, they are old and worn-out, and it doesn't make any difference if they've reached their goal or not." - Jean Webster, 'Daddy-Long-Legs'


"Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it." - Groucho Marx

choosing to love;

To Prayer Team:



We had our ukissmeSG BBQ yesterday to celebrate U-Kiss' 2nd Year Anniversary and God blessed us with good weather - no rain! (although still hot =.=) The turn out was good - 60 people? And some of you may know that we gave out 90 balloons and free hugs :D I can't remember who came up with the balloons idea (Gillian/Ant? inspired by Jaeson Ma's 365 days of love) I think Gillian & the other girls can share more on it hehe I just want to share some things I learnt from it (:

Everyone's response to the surprise free hugs event was good, and we started off giving each other hugs~ I attached a picture of the awesome free hugs signs U-Kiss edition that Gillian drew/paint/coloured! xD You cannot find these anywhere else!!! ;)

Anyway, I was one of the "paparazzi" at the beginning, chasing the girls everywhere to take photos of them approaching people and giving out balloons, hugs. I was able to observe some of the girls, and I noticed that the balloons were a sort of bridge to allow them to comfortably approach people, but once the balloons ran out, it was something interesting ;) I noticed that it was quite difficult for most of the girls to reach out and give the people hugs, & it is understandable, because giving someone a hug is "invading" their personal space? & not everyone is comfortable with doing that! Later on, after I got separated with the huge group of girls & joined back with a smaller group, that's when the exciting things happened which caused us to be back at the pit 1 hr later than everyone else LOL. I wanted to share more with Gillian Ant Cord Sue but it wasn't a very convenient time so~~~~~~

As I walked with the girls, it dawned on me that we were actually choosing people to offer the free hugs to, unconsciously; whether it was fear of rejection based on people's outward appearance, or wanting to only hug people who look "good", or other possible reasons etc. I admit that I was too, guilty of this, and along the way, I think God spoke to me through some people we met. When we were halfway through our walk, I told Willy that I felt that we shouldn't be choosing people to give hugs to, and she strongly agreed, so from a certain point, we made a group decision to approach as many people we see!

First was a family, sitting under shelter, and they looked unfriendly and were not well-dressed. Having their images registering in our minds, I could tell we were all hesitating. However, we decided to just approach them, and I just had a strong feeling that I should be the first one to step up, so I did! As I went up first and hugged the family and wished them a good day, the girls too followed suit! (: The family, who wasn't smiling at all and had unfriendly expressions as we saw earlier on, all disappeared and became warm and happy smiles which really touched my heart!

Second, we approached this table of elder people eating and talking. When we explained what we were doing, they hugged us happily, and this grandma kept saying I was like her granddaughter LOL. After that, they kept offering us a bag of fruit HAHAHA (i think longans) and ondeh-ondeh that they were eating LOL. In particular, one grandma said this to me, "谢谢你们看的上我们." Her words made me think of the "choosing people to give hugs to" thing I was thinking about earlier.

Third, it was a random couple we were starting to walk past -we were quite hesitant about disturbing couples rofl- but Willy and I looked at each other & we just stopped and walked up to them. Turns out the guy saw us a while ago and he wanted to ask us about what we were doing, but we were "walking away" from him! o.O They were really friendly haha and encouraged us xD

In conclusion, I learned something yesterday. Jesus didn't choose who to love, based on how they look, what they're wearing, etc. but He loved ALL, unconditionally. & He was my role model when I overcame stereotyping people -not entirely but I tried my best- and hugged people as I know Jesus would. I think we should have more free hugs day in the future hahahahaha & the girls really enjoyed it & felt great too! So did I :D I really felt the joy of passing on an simple expression of love to the people in the park on a Saturday evening ;) A hug is such a powerful thing xD Thanks girls!! Love you all so much <3